I've Never Been Normal...

And this is no different.

Most people do not consider their ex a friend. Fewer still consider them their best friend.

Well I'm not called an odd duck for nothing, am I?

Me and Tinkerbell are still very close, we've had our ups and downs but I know that if I ever needed help she would do all she could and I would do the same for her. Basically all that's changed is that we don't have romantic feelings for each other.

I look back on the early part of the summer where I actually thought I could stop loving her and have to shake my head. I was miserable and guilty and, all in all, not that fun a person to be around. Then Eva sat me down and told me flat-out that I didn't have it in me not to love someone who meant so much to me. I tried to explain that it was wrong of me to feel that way when she asked me why I thought I should be normal now when I never had been before. So I stopped stressing about it.

And lo and behold, I was much happier.

She taught me that I did deserve to be loved and that everyone deserves a second chance. It is her influence that is the reason why I am so forgiving now. She taught me to do all I can to keep my promises. She also beat into my head that I was not trash and that I actually am a good person. She would argue that and say I'm a wonderful person to which I respond "baby steps." I have been truly blessed to have her in my life and wonder what I would do without her.

You kept me from killing myself and then helped me figure out who I was and I can never really repay you for that. Won't stop me from trying though. You know better than anyone that I am nothing if not stubborn.

You try and say you are nothing special. I merely ask that you remember our motto: "Sometimes the way we see ourselves isn't as true as the way others see us."

You're my best friend Tinkerbell, and I love you dearly.

Thank you for all you have done for me Darlin'.

And always remember...